After a year things start to change (again)

It has been almost a year that I sold my apartment in Amsterdam and started this journey. Since we left Netherlands in Juni 2015, I drove ± 20.000 kilometres, slept in 24 different beds, crossed 25 times 12 different borders and actually lived in 3 different places. I loved every bit of it and I learned a lot, mostly about myself. And now things are changing. More and more I long for a place that I can call my home again. A place that I can connect to and start investing in, build new relationships. A place that I can put a seed into the earth of the garden and see it grow. Of course you never know what the future will bring and if you will be there to see it, but I want to have the intention to do so.

A light feeling of displacement has risen. Some kind of tiredness to live in houses according to someone else's standards. If you live temporarily in a house that belongs to someone else, you have to take care of it like the owner does. At least that is my opinion and I do not like to do it otherwise. But I start noticing that I get a little bit tired of it and I wish that it was just my own wine glass that I just dropped and I wouldn't have to care about it. Does this make any sense or am I writing weird stuf?

Maybe it is the age that has something to do with it, I don't know. Luckily we both have the same feeling. What we want or where isn't that clear yet. But one thing is clear: it won't be the Netherlands. As I said before, this year I have learned a lot about myself and one of these things is that I like to be outside, have space around me and to be close to nature. The views we are having in France and what we had in Greece were awesome. Just having a great view, makes me feel good. I don't have those in the Netherlands and especially not in Amsterdam. Even though you have great views from the tall buildings in the city, it's a city-view. No mountains in the background or a blue sea. And if I have to choice to have it otherwise, I know what I choose.

Where we will find a place that we like enough to stay, we do not know yet. That is the next step in the quest. The only thing I know is that it will be within Europe, because I can not leave the Netherlands too far... 

Love,
Sira