It has been almost two years ago that we left the Netherlands to go for a road trip of a couple of months. We ended up driving over 30.000km and staying in over 60 different places. For me it was a major step. Selling my appartement including all my belongings. To leave my family and friends behind. To leave without really any plan. It isn’t easy to let go but it was definitely worth it.
It was awesome
We lived with the freedom of only having to pack for one morning and of we were on our way to a new place. To be able to do that, gives you such a liberated feeling. You can feel so free. But after doing this a lot of times, reality hits you as well. The constant packing, saying goodbye and starting over again is not always fun. On one side it makes you grow as a human being. All the things you see around you, how people live. You learn. But in the end you leave again. Do you also build something? Like relationships? Do you develop yourself in this area as well?
Packing, leaving, starting over - and repeat
I have to admit: I am tired. It sounds really stupid, I know. After all: I didn’t even work for all that time. How the hell did I get tired right? But it is. I am tired of arranging a new place to stay every so many weeks. I am tired of unpacking, getting used to new surroundings, introducing myself, finding out where to go for shopping, where to find a garage and stashing our stuff in another closet (or just somewhere in a corner). It is more or less the same procedure wherever you end up. Of course it is exciting to discover a new area, meet new people, eat different things. But the one thing you do not do, is to bind. Not with a place or people. You do not build something. There is no longterm thinking. No longterm thinking can be liberating. But it also means there are no things to work towards to, to look forward to. Does that sound strange? I am sorry, I find it hard to describe.
What I am trying to say is that I need a bit more 'building' at the moment. Some solid ground for a little bit. And we have. A small appartement in Amsterdam, some furniture of our own, jobs and even a dog sitter. I love it. I am happy to be working again. I do not have to think about where we will live next month. That part is taken care of. Now I can start thinking about other things. Build something. Although I have no clue yet what but that doesn't matter.
Will we stay here?
For now. But it is not our goal to stay in Amsterdam. Oh no. We miss the nature, the mountains, the sea. During vacations we will try to visit those as much as possible. In the meantime we work on our plan what to do next. When we will leave the next time: we will leave with a plan. And it won’t be just a road trip…